( Apr. 20th, 2001 01:23 pm)
It's so nice outside and I have massive amounts of work to do. Vacations are never long enough. Spent all day yesterday in Noho applying to employment agencies in hopes of a summer job. It was rather exhausting. I also didn't have time to drink, eat,or pee until 5:30. But anyway.

My dreams weren't helpful. In fact, I can't even remember what they were. I'm still confused. My friend says I should talk to my gf and he is probably right. But its such a touchy issue and she's in a rough place right now and I feel like I'm being selfish. But something isn't right. And there are things I miss. Actually, I kind of miss boys. And I think I want to give the whole poly thing another go, but I don't think she's going to go for it, not now. We've put it on the back burner for so long that I think she thinks that I don't feel that way anymore. I hate having difficult serious conversations. Still very confused.
I got my Rhea's Obsession Cd. I thought that I'd have to bat my eyelashes at someone (does that really ever work) to get a ride to the UPS place in West Springfield but my neighbors picked it up for me. Yay!

Wondering about swedish fish and the fact that I have to same bag of swedish fish that my mom gave me when I moved in here two months ago and wondering if I should actually eat them. Not because they're bad because they don't go bad....

The day after halloween. Many interesting journal entries. Sounds like an interesting night was had by many. I had a good start to my new year. Got to know some people a little better although some maybe too much. Won prizes for knowing who starred in the Labrinyth. And left before the overwhelming number of people got to me.

And today was good too. Lots of yummy food at the preschool potluck. Early out of science methods and lots of interesting conversation and more getting to know people. Though I felt bad for the poor guy who got left out most of the night. Its hard to be part of just one alternative way of living in the valley but he just had no idea about most of what we were discussing even before it devolved into vague, public personal conversations. But I remember what it was like to be him. Not knowing what people were talking about more than half the time. Maybe we'll actually discuss poly issues at a meeting :)

But I'm on a role, two social nights in a row and I have plans for Fri and Sat. To a new year.
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